February 10, 2004

+sighs+ cried my eyes out last night. no idea why my doubts and insecurities about *us are setting in again. i hate that feeling +sighs+ i don't even know if i'm doubting myself or doubting his love for me. +mutters+ *cheryl, your such an idiot!*

and mel, for the record.. i know i'm ridiculous and unreasonable. but i can't help myself feeling this way. i can't block all these negative thoughts from entering my head once again. maybe... the thought were never fully gone. they were just hiding in the dark, waiting for a chance to reappear?

but once again, the stupid idiot = ME!! is feeling very very insecure about herself. and she's trying to fight away the doubts she has about her relationship... somehow not really going the way she wants it to and she feels lost and dumb!

+shrugs+ oh well. maybe i should ignore the stupid negative thoughts and feelings and hopefully they'll get the hint and finally go away??

seesh! i feel like such an idiot! blah

<-je -|- t'aime->

--* imperfect unsatisfaction 10:19 *-- [.//cry out**]









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